For anything that crosses my mind.

I randomly paused and thought of my fears, of the things i’ve been missing throughout my life. I have a flying phobia that I’ve never enjoyed a single flight ever, I can’t swim and haven’t driven a bike in my life. I’m horrified by scary movies, I hate the dark, age-phobic, can never deal with animals and sometimes people (not to mention).

After a while I wondered if my fears really took over. I found out that I’ve never stopped flying and my travelling addiction actually dominated. One of my dreams or better say targets is owning a bike or an electronic bicycle. I never stop missing the sea and summer even when I proved my ultimate failure at swimming. I find a real pleasure heading to sleep even if it’s in the dark. I actually got to hold 2 of the world’s least lovely animals and inject them obligatory that I believe I can never be scared of any other creatures in this universe. Every year I hate the fact that i’m growing older but I never stopped celebrating my birthday. I had to let people go and taste the bitterness of the gap they left so I can later move on.

I believe in the power of this emotion-fear-and I believe in its strength when accompanied by the will.

The day he saw her he couldn’t get her out of his mind, but he could never say it out loud. He saw her everyday, talked about everything, laughed, shared secrets, helped her study, gave her a ride whenever she needed.
He was the first to support her, the last to let her down. The first to wish her a happy birthday, the last to wish her a good night. He saw her every night in his sleep, yet still missed her. He gave her his heart and never asked for hers, he believed one day she’ll fall for him. Who doesn’t love back a passionate lover like he was?
His heart skipped a beat whenever she called his name. He could see the best in her regardless of her flaws, she was the queen of beauty in his eyes..actually she conquered his heart. She made fun of people when they thought of them as lovers and he couldn’t but laugh. He still believed one day she’ll feel the same.
And when the day came to confess she was in love, he couldn’t believe it, his years of patience have finally paid off. The life he was dreaming of flash before his eyes. Living together, having her baby, sharing love, growing old, seeing her even more beautiful than she
ever was in his eyes.
The moment came, he couldn’t utter a word, he felt his heart torn into pieces, his heart was broken, forever scarred. She was supposed to love him, he who gave her everything he owned, he even was loyal to her love when he wasn’t supposed to be. He thought of telling her the truth but he had to be next to her as he has always been. Every word she said hurt his soul deep inside and he couldn’t but fake a smile. He saw her eyes glowing like a person really in love just like he was with her. The difference is that she never understood it.
That was the moment when he realized that whatever he gave would have never been enough. He knew it wasn’t even about life being unfair like it was to him. He just loved her but she didn’t.

It’s not unfamiliar now everyone’s complaining about what they’ve got. Either education, relationships, friendship, shape or the daily routine.

Why can’t we realize we are the ones who make our future? Sick of the field of this study? You chose it, you didn’t? then change it, you can’t? then love it, you can’t? then work hard till you’re done with it and you’re free to explore your world. No one is tied forever.

The usual relationship dilemma, here we go. I’ve heard the ‘I deserve better’ phrase over a hundred times in my life. If you really do then why did u choose it? why did it choose u? Mistake? correct it, You can’t? desert it, It’s hard? ask for support, you rejected? You deserve it.

Now the friendship betrayal. Yes, people change, you and I are one of them but is that an excuse? NEVER! we’ll always meet new people, like them, get closer, share secrets,they may let us down, others won’t. That’s the point when you know who your real friends are and that’s when you know you’re really safe with them.

Tell me about the DIET that ALWAYS starts TOMORROW. I assume every 6 out 10 people complain about their weight and at the exact moment don’t move a muscle to put the weight off. We believe we’ll get in a better shape by complaining and reading about weight loss, ignoring the diet, exercise and mental training needed. Is it strange that you deserve what you eat?

Sick of the daily routine? BREAK IT! Set a goal for yourself. Go out, socialize, friends, family, neighbors, colleagues, exercise, meditate,help others, stay in, relax, read, search, receive, dig deeper, brainstorm, write! You’re too lazy to think? Then you deserve it.

Now you decided to gather all the strength, get the ideas buried in this brain of yours into action, stop using excuses and enjoy the outcome?

You can? You deserve it.

When things don’t go the way we want them to we most of the times go hard on ourselves, blaming them believing we are the ones mistaken. There’s one absolute thing, it is that there’s nothing absolute, we can’t be right or wrong all the way. We put all our thoughts into this thing and praise it like it’s the only way out for happiness. It’s healthy since ignoring it means a false healing process. Keep drowning in your thoughts till a sudden signal alerts you that you’ve finally got your lesson right. You knew what went wrong in the first place but what’s more important is knowing you can make it through regardless of how big the error was, and you’ll eventually love the strong person inside.

And always remember.. if it was meant to be, you would have never learned your lesson.

One of the most common phrases repeated in either songs, movies or even just quotes is that we run in circles. Actually it has always attracted me and I had no idea why till time went flying and I found it bigger than what I thought it was, being a circle of family, friends, places or people you know.

It’s a circle of repeated situations starting from the existence of mankind, the world changes, becomes civilized, hi-tech dominates, it’s claimed emotions fade, people get busier by time but the fact remains that the circle is the same.

Parents take care of their kids, they grow older-parents and kids- the role is reversed.

The boy falls in love with a girl, she doesn’t, she starts falling for him, then he’s suddenly out of love.

Kids can’t wait to grow old, they do, they wonder why they wished for it so bad in the first place.

You’re given advice, reject it, time passes, you find out you were wrong. Repeat the mistake.

You take things for granted, be warned, don’t give a single care, you lose it.

You spend so much on food, gain extra weight, spend more money losing that weight.

You work so hard to have money, earn it, spend it, start over.

People let you down, wonder how in the world could they do so, you let others down, believe you’re not as bad.

You share a secret, it’s no more secret.

Some see it karma, I never believed so. I believe that you’ll experience what most of others have, being good or bad, and you will definitely do the same for people. We all leave our mark on others.

What I’m saying is that it’s not about returning to where you started but it’s about life repeating itself no matter when or where but those circles will always be recycled till eternity. It’s so impressing how every single person believes he is different, capable of changing basic definitions, has this unique sense of understanding the world.

To me it’s a big circle holding inside it a tight set of circles, smaller ones, some of which are strongly bound, others hollow inside, else broken and scattered between other circles. They do have one thing in common, it’s YOU the common thread that can link them all together just perfectly like no one else. It’s your life, your circle of life and no one can decide on how to link them together like you do.